Tonight marks Yom Kippur, the Jewish day of Atonement. I actually really like the fact that D and I got married right before the Jewish New Year (Rosh HaShana) because I am one of those “fresh start” people. You know, diets start on Monday, financial planning starts the first of the month. So to have my marriage start at the beginning of a fresh year? Perfect for me. The last 10 days in my religion have been filled with the important task of apologizing to people I have wronged, and forgiving people who have wronged me. If I have inadvertantly hurt any of you, please take this as my sincere apology.
And now, I am going to do something that I have never done, and probably you have never done either. I am going to forgive MYSELF for the things that I haven’t done right in the last year. I apologize to myself for: not losing 60 pounds, for not earning more money, for not keeping a cleaner house, and for not being more organized in general. I know that I didn’t always try my best to be the person I want to be, and that is okay. ALl I can ask of myself is that I do so in the future, and I trust that I will.
That feels nice. Let’s see if perhaps this year, I kick it into high gear!